a look back.

I was trying to remember if I had ever shared on my blog how I found out I was pregnant.  I thought I had but I couldn't find it.  Thats because I wrote it as a guest post for Joey's cousin Lacey (in the City)!  I wanted to share it again, here.  Keep in mind this was written during my first trimester.  My husband also wrote about it from his point of view.  Read on for my thoughts and my husbands thoughts on our first trimester with Shepherd:

Hers: On September 10th 2011, I was starting to suspect I was pregnant.  Now, I literally suspect I'm pregnant every single month so this wasn't too unusual.  My parents were coming to town for the weekend and while we were waiting on them to show up, I took one of the pregnancy tests I had stockpiled in our bathroom.  The "double line" was up for debate and we decided it was unreliable.  The next few hours were weird, not knowing if we were pregnant or not.  We were driving separate from my parents to lunch so on the way there we ran in Walmart to purchase a test that would say "Pregnant" or "Not pregnant."  After we got home from lunch I went to the bathroom, not telling Joey I was going to take the test.  It was surreal, those two minutes I was alone in the bathroom, knowing I was the only person in the world who knew I was pregnant.  It was like I had this special little secret all to myself. I had always imagined how I would tell Joey I was pregnant.  I pictured some romantic, memorable way, like Michelle Pfeiffer in The Story of Us.  Instead, I was literally out of my mind and mouthed "I'm pregnant" to him across the room so my parents wouldn't hear.  Smooth. I'm almost 15 weeks now, and I can honestly say I've never been happier in my life.  Joey and I have been together for seven years, but sharing this has brought us so much closer.  The biggest thing that has changed is that literally every breath I take is a prayer for this child.  I can't wait to find out if we are having a boy or a girl, I'm even excited to give birth (as long as I don't think about the specifics). I can't wait to see if it looks like me or Joey (although I'm sure it will look like my Indian husband, my blonde/pale combo doesn't stand a chance against those dark features). I'm so excited for this next stage in our life!  Thanks Lacey for letting us share =)


His: My wife and I like to think of ourselves as level headed people...most of the time. I mean sure I may pretend to think that vodka is waaay cooler than it actually is and she may have a short fuse when it comes to my singing voice but in general we try to keep it real. That cool, level headed couple flew out the window a few months ago on a sunny Saturday in September when we found out we were becoming cool, level headed parents!!!

Just like it's future parents, our little one had impeccable timing (we're always late). Jess and I were trying to figure out how to squeeze an extra $200ish from our monthly budget and were car shopping. You see, a week prior her Mazda tribute had given us the big FU and completely died...only $3500.00 to repair...hahahahahahahaha. So the morning we are to start looking for something new(er) Jess takes a pregnancy test. Of course, this was no ordinary pregnancy test it was some ridiculous Dollar Tree brand "U Pragnant??" I think was the name of it. Anyway, it was impossible to read yet just clear/unclear enough to make us think it was telling us we were with child. So we kinda put that in the back of our mind and headed out to find a car. Long story short Black RAV4, digital pregnancy test x 2, YOU'RE PREGNANT both times!! We're over the moon!

When Jess told me the great news I instantly felt like a 12 year old boy, "I'm not ready for this, I'm so excited/I'm so nervous/Am I ready for this...I'm almost 30/Eeeek!" No, I didn't really think the word "Eeeeek" but you get the picture. Then I remembered that I, in our wedding vows, had referenced the "monster" Jess would become when she is pregnant and started to worry. Now don't get me wrong, my little buttercup is pure bliss but she has her quirks...all of which I anticipate to be greatly exaggerated upon being impregnated. For instance, she self diagnoses. "Joey I read somewhere that you can develop a fish allergy at any moment" So now when we go on vacation or to Red Lobster, you better believe Mrs. Lawhorn has benedryl in her purse. We are 15 weeks in and so far...it's been pretty smooth sailing.

One little zinger of advice I will give future fathers...don't start a bathroom remodel during the first trimester...well during pregnancy for that matter...a pregnant wife waking up with morning sickness to a gutted bathroom with no toilet...not a good morning/day/week.

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28 weeks and counting!


I've been on the lookout for a diaper bag, and haven't found any "diaper bags" I love.  I saw this purse at Target and thought it might work as a diaper bag.  But I really have no idea what I'm about to get myself into in less than 3 months.  How is it so close!?  I'm so excited to meet my baby boy but definitely still need some time to prepare!

Here is a picture from yesterday:

28 weeks + 3 days
I literally feel gigantic.

Friday I had my test for Gestational Diabetes.  I won't know my results until later this week, but hopefully I passed.  You have to drink this thick syrup-y drink, in less than 5 minutes.  I am so bad at stuff like that.  I had my timer on my phone going and was stressing out.  The drink wasn't that bad if I had longer to drink it.  After that you wait an hour and then they draw your blood.  Having blood drawn doesn't bother me, but I still don't watch it happen.  While I'm having it done Joey is watching and starts making these faces like something terrible is happening to me because he doesn't like blood.  I asked him if he's going to be ok in the delivery room.  He also always makes faces at me behind the doctors back and I can't keep a straight face.  I'm glad he goes with me to all of my appointments :)

Joey will be such a good Daddy, look at this picture I took of him and our nephew walking around the mall yesterday:


At my check up my doctor said that I am measuring perfectly!  That always makes me feel better when I think I'm as big as a house.   I'm really short waisted so he has nowhere to go but out.  At the appointment we also heard Shepherd's strong little heartbeat.  I could listen to it all day!  

Some 28 week updates:

-- Shepherd is almost as long as he will be when he's born...probably about 17 inches right now.  Now we are just adding fat to his little body because he is only weighing about 3 lbs this week.

-- I've been shopping for more maternity clothes, still trying to not buy a lot and just wear what I have.  Last week I washed the same pair of maternity leggings almost every day, haha.

--I'm feeling him move a lot more now, but still not from the outside because of my anterior placenta.  I hope the bigger he gets the more we will feel him and Joey will be able to feel him move.  Sometimes I'll be feeling him move and when Joey puts his hands on my belly he stops!

-- Text messages like this are common at our house:

Who is excited for the Oscars tonight??
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my whole heart.


I want this quote somewhere in Shepherd's nursery.

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before & after + our living room through the years

I want to share this before and after with you all.  This is an old stereo.  It actually plays records AND the radio!  So cool!!  It used to be wood and Joey painted it red a long time ago.  Its just been sitting in our garage for two years.  We were trying to decide what to do with it and decided just to see what it looked like behind the couch.  One thing I've learned: You have to actually just put furniture somewhere and see it.  So many times I've thought, "well theres no way this is going to look good but I'll just try it" and then it ends up working!  We didn't like the red, so decided to paint it the same yellow as our front door.

Before:

After:

What do you all think?
Joey and I love little projects like this, and it seems like we rearrange our entire living room every few months.  This is the first time we've had our couch actually facing the tv, I think its my favorite arrangement yet.

Here are some photos of our living room over the past few years:

Right when we moved in:
 Back when we had a coffee table:
Got rid of the coffee table:
Then we got rid of the rug:

Added a vintage card catalog:

Moved the couch:
 Moved the card catalog:
Brought in a vintage piano bench:


So thats our living room over the past 3 years.  A couple things I want to change...new curtains, new overhead fan/light, I would love a new rug, but with 2 pups I think hardwood is easier to keep clean.  Its fun to keep switching it up.  Do you all like to redecorate every once in awhile too?
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caftan craze and our weekend

How was your weekend?  We had a nice low key weekend.  Friday night we went to dinner with our BFFs at Red Lobster. Then we went to see The Vow.  I read the book before.  Has anyone else read the book?  Very different from the movie.  Not in a bad way, but the book focused a lot more on her physical recovery and less on them piecing their relationship back together.   I left the movie feeling weird.  I really liked it, I was just sad!!  I kind of wish the movie had made more of a focus on the fact that they were married and had made VOWS to each other.  The book focused on that a lot.  I think that was a big point of the book, the wife knew that even though she had no idea who her husband was, that she had made a vow to be with him for better or worse, no matter what.  

Saturday we went to dinner with Joey's family at Texas Roadhouse, then his little sister Caitlyn had a sleepover with us!  We rented a movie and just hung out.

OK, just wanted to share this with you all, it is so funny:
I have always wanted a caftan like Elizabeth Taylor used to always wear.
 When Kim wore one in Dubai, it sealed the deal!!  It looks so comfortable and pretty!

Well, this isn't exactly the flattering piece of dress I had in mind, but my husband surprised me by ordering one he found online.  
 Its super flattering on this big ol pregnant body!
 I may look like I'm wearing a gigantic sheet, but I love it, hahaha!!

If anyone would like their own beautiful caftan send me a message and I'll send you the website.

Sunday we were planning on going to church with Caitlyn and we slept right through the alarm.  I was so mad at myself!  We spent all day Sunday registering for our baby showers that are coming up.  Then Sunday night Joey had a tennis match.  He plays in a league and I love going to watch him!  I'm going to brag on him for a minute.  He is really good!  His coach has told him that he has natural talent and if he had started when he was younger he could have really done something with it.  I wish he had played in high school!


Happy Monday!
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Shep Style

Who says dressing boys isn't fun?
Actually, I did.  But I'm changing my mind with these adorable little boy outfits from pinterest.
I can't wait to meet him!  Less than 3 months.




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What will my baby look like??

I found a website that let me upload a picture of me and a picture of my husband to see what our baby will look like.  Obviously I've spent way too much time doing this, haha.
Somehow I've never pictured me having a blonde pale son.  I think he'll look just like his daddy, tan and dark curly hair!  But we will see...

Our son:
 Or maybe he'll look like a little girl (they told me this was a boy...I'm not so sure!):
And the second website scares me a little...our son may be in trouble!! Eeek
 I tried some different pictures and the results weren't any better:

Good luck Shep! Bahhaha
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27 Week Update

I am officially 27 weeks today.
Here is the most recent picture I have of my bump, but it was taken a few days ago...when I was 26 weeks and 2 days.

Due Date: May 16

Size of baby: 15 inches, a little over 2 lbs.  He is being compared to a cucumber by my baby app.

Maternity clothes:  I'll wear anything that fits right now!  Still lots of leggings and I moved on up to the XL size!

Sleep: Oh Lord, I'm driving us both crazy!! I cannot get comfortable.  Last night as Joey was almost asleep I woke him up to get me another pillow to put in between my legs.  Then I was really nice and let him almost get to sleep a second time before I woke him up for a 3rd pillow!  Sleep is not happening right now.

Cravings: Chocolate

Symptoms: Back pain back pain back pain, and I get out of breath just bending over...

Weight Gain: Last I checked, 18 lbs.

What do you miss: My back not hurting.

I try not to complain about anything negative about being pregnant.  There are some people on facebook who update their status daily about how hard it is being pregnant.  It is hard, pregnancy isn't for wimps!  But I can't complain when I think about all of the mommas who are throwing up everyday, or whose baby has something unhealthy about them and they would give anything to trade that.  I have a healthy little boy, and I pray he stays that way!  I'm very thankful for being pregnant.

I also found out that I have an anterior placenta.  I was concerned because I always hear people talk about how much they feel their baby move, and I hardly feel Shep move at all.  At least not like I was expecting.  I asked my doctor about it and she said its because I have an anterior placenta.  Basically that means that my egg implanted on the opposite side of the uterus compared to what usually happens.  Because of that, the placenta grows on the front (anterior) with the baby behind it.  So, the placenta is cushioning a lot of Shepherd's movements.   I can feel him, but its more on my sides or high or low on my belly, and not really from the outside.  Which means Joey hasn't been able to feel him :(  I feel a little left out of how exciting that would be and I wish I could feel him more, but I'm just glad that he's healthy!

I'll leave you with some pictures of my husband putting together Shep's crib.





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Valentines Day 2012

My morning started with my favorite flowers in pink.

After work I'm pretty sure I scared the life out of my husband by having a hormonal moment when I woke him up from his nap and told him he was never allowed to put his phone on silent again because I wanted him to go to the grocery with me and carry the bags in.  How does he put up with me?  He responded by telling me he would go to the grocery alone so I could take a long relaxing bath.  Sweetest most patient man in the world.
 He got the bath ready and had even planned ahead for this and got me new magazines to read.
 Then while I soaked in the tub, Joey made dinner.  Pesto salmon with Red Lobster biscuits and vegetables.
We got engaged 3 years ago on Valentines Day and like to always make chocolate covered dessert like we did the night we got engaged.  My desserts look like a child's:
 Joey's turned out a little better:
 For a gift Joey got me The Vow to read and a new pair of leggings, since they are the only thing I wear and I have outgrown my latest size!

I got Joey a gift too but I'll show pictures after its finished...

We ended the night sipping on warm apple cider and watching tv.

Valentine's Day is my favorite holiday!

Hope you had a great day filled with L.O.V.E!
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My Valentine

(This is my favorite picture of us, ever!  I think it was 2005 and I had just got back to Lexington after spending the summer in my hometown.  We went to Walmart to get tape for me to hang something up (why I needed it right then...???) but we were so excited to be together and you can tell in this picture.)

In the beginning:  
I met Joey for the first time when I was probably 15.  I was going to a Dixie Chicks concert with my friend, and he was going with her sister.  I didn't think anything about him, he seemed really old because he was in college.
I met Joey for the second time when I was probably 17.  I was a senior in high school and went with my friend Catherine to visit UK, where we were planning on going to school.  We stayed one night in a dorm during our visit, and it happened to be the dorm Joey lived in.  I remember hanging out with a bunch of people that night and I remember him being there but again, I didn't think a thing about him.  College students still seemed so old to me, even if I had noticed him I never would have thought I'd date someone so old, haha!
The next year Catherine and I were all moved in to Lexington and one night we went to the Baptist Student Union for a worship service.  After it was over I was talking to someone and I look over and Catherine is talking to Joey.  I don't know why, and I didn't realize it at the time, but I wanted him to notice me.  So I remember running over and playfully running into Catherine.  Wow, really smooth.  And then, he introduces himself to me!  Now, one of my number one types of people I don't like are people who act like they don't know you.  Maybe its because I literally remember every single person I've ever met and something about them, but don't act like you don't know someone!  Anyway, so he introduces himself to me, when I knew he knew who I was.  So in my head I was kind of like, "nevermind this guy thinks he's cool and he's really just rude!"  I think I called him out on that, and he said he was just joking of course he remembered me.  After this we all decided to go eat on campus.  I don't really remember eating, but when we were leaving Catherine and I said goodbye and had to walk the other way to our dorm.  I remember walking away from him and giggling with Catherine and hoping he wondered what was so funny! 
I honestly didn't think anymore about him after that, I still thought he was old.  But pretty soon after that night, Joey was talking to Catherine on AIM (haha) and told her he had a crush on her roommate.  Catherine asked me what I thought about it.  In high school I never dated anyone, I don't know why I was just never into boys.  When boys liked me I always felt conflicted because on one hand I didn't want to never date anyone and die alone (dramatic) but I just never was into anyone.  I always figured if I turned them down it wasn't meant to be.  So, really I am surprised I said ok when Cat asked me what I thought.  I don't know why I went against what I usually did, but I remember thinking it would be fun.  
After that we started dating and were together all the time.  I wish I could go back to that beginning when we were dating and everything was so new and exciting!  I was so incredibly happy and giddy and would literally run to meet him.  I loved him immediately.  He was so incredibly nervous around me and always asking me a million times if I was having fun/ok/needed anything.  It was so reassuring to have someone so obsessed with me!

Now he is my husband.  I have loved him since I was 18.  I still am surprised sometimes that he chose to be with me.   I am very lucky.  Especially since being pregnant, I've noticed I view life a little differently than some people.  I'm blessed to have a husband who is on the same page as me.  I'm blessed to have a husband who enjoys the same things I do.  I'm blessed to have a husband who thinks I'm really smart and always wants my opinion.  After 7 years, I still feel just as in love as I did in the beginning.  He still makes me excited.  Even if I'm not running across campus to meet him anymore, I still can't wait for him to get home in the afternoon!  I feel more in love now, because it means more.  We've shared so much, we've been through so much, we've grown as individuals and we've grown together.  When you meet someone at 18, or 22 for him, a lot can change.  And a lot has changed.  I'm not the same person I was then and he isn't either.  Thank God!  It amazes me that with so much change, one thing remains the same.  We both still just want each other.  As parents, I believe the best thing we can give our children is a healthy marriage.  What they see us do they will model in their own lives and in their own relationships.  Shepherd, I am already praying for your future marriage and your future wife.  How glad I am to have a husband who I know will be an amazing example of what a husband should be and what a daddy should be.  I know that is hard to find.

Happy Valentines Day everyone.  Next year I'll have two Valentines!  Tell someone you love them today!
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bloggy award

I have been very neglectful of my blog because I've been sick since last Thursday!  I started feeling sick on Thursday and had to take off work on Friday.  I basically moved from the couch to the bed and back again all weekend and I'm still home sick today, waiting for the doctor to call me back.  (Have been waiting 3 hours but who is counting?? Oh, thats right, me!)

In good news, Kylie, from the blog Living in a Mitten, nominated me for an award!

"Liebster" is German for "beloved, dearest, favorite."  Thank you Kylie!!
This award is passed between bloggers and is designed for blogs with less than 200 followers.

Here are the rules:
1. Link back to the blogger who nominated you.
2. Copy and paste the award to your blog.
3. List at least 3 blogs (with less than 200 followers) that you would like to award.

My nominees are:
Stephanie, from the blog Take Hart
Emma, from the blog Emma Lately


Check out their blogs and thanks for reading mine!

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best friend hugs

I found this video I made of Chauncey and Blue from awhile back.  They are literally the sweetest things I've ever seen.  Watch this video of them hugging:


puppy hugs from Jessica Lawhorn on Vimeo.
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we won!

I am so.excited.
A few weeks ago I entered both Joey and I in a giveaway from the Lexington Opera House.  You may recall my love for all things Elvis.  Well the Opera House was giving away tickets to the show Elvis Lives. I love theatre and I've always wanted to see this show.  Well, today Joey calls me at work and tells me he won!!  AND to make it even better, we also get 2 nights free at the Heartbreak Hotel in Memphis, and tickets to tour Graceland!  I can't believe it, I never win anything!  Except Joey pointed out that technically he won, which makes sense because he always has luck at stuff like this!  
We get to go to the show on Thursday night, so I'll let you know how it goes.  Not sure when we will be making our trip to Memphis. 

Isn't the Opera House pretty?  I think we are front row!

I hope we get the Burning Love suite at the Heartbreak Hotel:
Or maybe the Graceland suite:
Bahaha I am showing my true tacky colors aren't I??

Here I am on my last trip to Graceland:

TCB y'all!
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